Zulaikha

2010-02-08T05:56:00.001-08:00

it has been a while since i have post and i dunnu why
i havent been posting or a long time.
well right now i have been feeling depressed..but who cares?
i mean i am like his since i was born.
and right now i have a sayang already- Guo En...hehehehe
i also got a darling(Janice),two babies( Poh Yi and Adda),a mother ( Apavee), a father (Nathanael) and a bestfriend ( Aaron Chen) :P
they are very cute people...:p

2010-01-16T02:07:00.000-08:00

Well its been a while since i have actually wrote a new post, but heres one anyway.
Right now i am trying to study and i am going to finish my homework right now
seriously, right now i really dislike mother tongue, because i think it is boring and i dont feel like caring about it, but that doesnt mean i will quit on it.
i have no choice at all, even though how much i hate it, quitting on it would be impossible and very stupid because it doesnt make u go anywhere.
And i am sick of holding everything inside, sometime i feel like bursting everything out!
i hate keeping all this feeling inside, it really hurts me you know.
heres a confession, though i am not gonna say out your name.
Firstly, i really really hate what you are doing right now, it hurts my feeling you know, i mean u know my feeling and yet u dont want to stop doing the thing u always did. how would you feel if i did the same thing to you, you would obviously hate me right, and knowing you, if i did the same of course you wont forgive me and you would back stab me.i dont really hate u actually, in fact dont dislike you at all, i really think of u as a great friend, but what you are doing is really hurting me. i wish you would just stop without me telling you and i hope you would realise what you just did. You think it is ok to do that but dont you know that whateve you are doing is affetcing me heartly..

2010-01-12T01:47:00.001-08:00

Well today i went home early so it was a good thing, right now i am going to have tuition in the evening, let see if she cancel it last minute this time.
oh well right now i am trying to do my amath homework and my mother tongue homework.
i could not understand how to do the amath so i am going to do the mother tongue first, if she really came for tuition, then i could probably ask her..
lets just hope she didnt come, because right now isnt really a good time..

2010-01-11T01:01:00.000-08:00

Just now went to the hall during chemistry classes because the seniors were going to receive their o level result slips. i kinda envy those who really did well for their exam because i dont really see myself as one of them but hopefully i will.
today was kinda short day and my father was like ' why are you home so early?' he doesnt know that today is the day that i go home the latest.
lessons was okok, because i didnt really much stuffs, and there wasnt much homework so it is a relieve. kinda bored right now, so yeah its good
one of my friend suddenly told me his o level result, he was so happy and even told me what he did -.- hahahhahaha i am really jealous of those who did well for their o level
not that i wont get it for mine but its just that i hope i will get the same expression as them wehen i get my result next year and the following years

2010-01-10T04:04:00.000-08:00

I have been studying this few days..
surprise? well i want to do well this year and i hope i will.
well just now my house was noisy so i was thinking of studying in the library
but then when i was in the library, i could not really study because
firstly, i have to sit on the floor, which i really dislike
secondly, its cold and i have to write on the floor
and then i could not concentrate because while i was studying and listening to the music, i will end up paying attention to the music, but then when i didnt hear music, people beside me are making awful whole lots of noise so yeah i could not concentrate.
so i end up studying for a while, but i still gain some knowledge you know, and then went to the causeway and look for stufss i wanna buy for someone special, hope that person will really like it.. i love that person so much so i wanna buy something special for that person. :)

2010-01-08T03:36:00.000-08:00

I am suppose to have my tuition today, but she cancelled it.
so annoying sia because she havent even show up once and yet she kept cancelling it everytime, like five times already. and the worse thing is that she couldnt make it because she is tired. she kept changing the time, i mean like am i suppose to follow her timing or the other way round? seriously sia!!

i have to find a new one already!!! any recommendation?

2010-01-07T06:22:00.001-08:00

only one day

2010-01-07T04:35:00.000-08:00

Your back figure as you left
I cant forget it
Because I cherished you
Time will fix it all
Was the support from my friends
But it is too less to bury you
In between the continuous trips
The thing that finds me again
It is your voice carried by the wind
Can you forget?

Day by day
The day that you arent here
Becomes a memory like yesterday
It burdens me so much
One day just for only one day
If only my hand can wipe your tears
Then I will tell you
My everything

The past memories I cant forget
It hides the past nights
When the heartless times stops
On top of the promise I couldnt keep
Is the dust that settled on top
Secretly, I clean it off with my tears

In between the large potion
Im looking for you again
My voice saying that I love you
Can you forget it

Day by day
The day that you arent here
Becomes a memory like yesterday
It burdens me so much
One day just for only one day
If only my hand can wipe your tears
Then I will tell you
My everything

In the split road of my destiny
Even if they say it is a shattered dream
I wish I can bring you back again

One day just for only one day
If I can get to see you
If this aged prayer can bring you back
What I couldnt say
The words I couldnt say that was deep inside my heart
Then I will tell you
I love you

One day just for only one day
If only my hand can wipe your tears
Then I will tell you
You are my everything
Please receive my last courage

:P

2010-01-07T03:30:00.001-08:00

Ok so i have changed my blog because i think there is something wrong with my previous blog and i do not care to take a look at the problem, because making a new one is much easier, but its sad that i am going to lose all my previous post, but what the heck, they are only post of rubbish, but got ss501 pictures:(...hahhahahhaha

So as you all know that school has already started, infact it is already the fourth fay of school and things has gone pretty normal i think, i mean whats there to look out for or being sad for or whatever feelings fr right? Well i think i like my sittin arrangement but i know that Mdm Raudha is gonna change it sooner or later. My place is surrounded by boys, actually it was no purposely, on the second day of school then i realize that. At first i wanted to change because i dont really feel comfortable sitting around with them but then things gone pretty ok to me, so i dont think there is a need to change my sitting arrangement.

Thsi year and next year i have o level, and i really hope that things go smoothly and i will do well, i will pray hard that things will go weel :) wish me luck aites